Saturday, January 5, 2013
I'm not saying goodbye....
I'm embarrassed to admit no one close to me--at least not a best friend--has ever moved away from me. This is all new territory for me. Yes, we'll Skype. And, yes, she'll be back for a visit in March and again in April. I still don't like it. But, I guess I'll have to big girl up and accept it, even though it truly sucks. This is just one of the changes rockin' my world and this one is a doozie.
I'm personally naming 2013 as The Year of Change. It started at the tail end of 2012 and has kept on rolling. Some of it I like, some of it I don't and the reality is, it will continue so I might as well go with the flow. Otherwise, it's like standing in the middle of a shallow, c-o-l-d, river in Colorado trying to force it to flow another direction--the direction I want it to flow. It's pretty clear who wins there and it sure isn't me. I look back at things I've resisted and found some of them were great learning experiences, some were extremely painful and others ended up just fine all by themselves, once I let it go. When I think anything is ALL ABOUT ME is when I'm headed for big trouble. 99.99999% of stuff isn't about me. I just think it is and I get sucked in to that ego trip of thinking it's up to me to fix it. It's NOT.
Yesterday I learned the greatest new acronym and I thought I'd pass it on here. It has to do with me wanting my way. I'll say something once, and then if I drag it back out and say it again, I've got an agenda and I'm trying to manipulate and get my way. Moral of the story: anytime I say something more than one time, I'm pushing to get my way so here's the acronym.
T-- talking If I've said it once, I don't need to say it again. Dang.